"What we play is life."

Right, so, my world fell apart today. I was driving home from the mall and this Death Cab song played which I had never heard before. The radio station announcer dude said, "oh yeah, this song from their newest album Narrow Stairs." And I was like, whaaaaa? Did I miss a song when I downloaded the album? So I get home, look it up on azlyrics, and no I did not miss any songs. So, completely baffled, I start looking through the lyrics to each song... only to learn to my chagrin that half of the songs I had downloaded and coveted as sweet new Death Cab songs are in fact by a German indie band which just sounds like them.

Shoot me.

I even talked about this with Jeff--I gave him my Narrow Stairs songs, and we talked about how it was odd that Ben Gibbard suddenly has a lisp in some of the songs. Well, it makes sense now! Gah!

So now I have to correctly name all of these non-Death-Cab songs (apparently the band's name is Velveteen, but I really like those songs, so I will have to check them out) and once I have internet for my laptop again I'll have to re-download limewire and get the correct Death Cab songs.

On the one hand this is devastating, because I really thought that was Death Cab. But on the other hand, I have a new awesome band to listen to AND half of Narrow Stairs to hear for the first time. But still: shoot me. Unbelievable. It's even up on wikipedia--someone thought it would be clever to leak a fake Narrow Stairs album before the real one was released. Man, did I ever get duped. How ridiculous.

But anyway.

Caitlin and I went to the mall today! Much fun ensued. We tried on fancy dresses and took silly pictures, and shopped ourselves to exhaustion. Gotta love the Alderwood Mall.

Yesterday I saw Christian. That was also much fun. :) I wish I had internets on my laptop, because unless I take it to the library (and even their wireless seems to elude me) I can't change my profile picture to that really awesome shot of me and half of Christian's face that we took at the Olive Garden. I have rad picture-taking skillz. It's true.

I work the next three days in a row, but Sunday is my last day at Penneys. Weird. I still wish I didn't have almost a full week with no work and nothing to do. I am still toying with the idea of taking a bus to go home to Pullman early, get my new key to the apartment, and unpack my stuff for a few days. I mean, what else will I be doing? It's pulling teeth to get my parents to lend me a car to drive, and everyone else is busy. Christian will be gone, Caitlin will not be very nearby, Maria is back at school... I have nothing to do except laze around and complain about how bored I am. I would rather spend the last few days of break being productive, unpacking my new room and taking the bus up to the rec center in lieu of sleeping gratuitously and expending little energy. Hmm.

Well, now that I've talked it up like that I REALLY want to take the bus back early. I could probably even take the train up to Spokane, hang out with Christian and/or Phill for a few hours/a day, and then take a bus from Spokane to Pullman. And since I already paid for $20 of gas to Steph for the trip over, then she will not be able to complain about picking me up and dropping me off for a little while. More than a litte while, what with the snow. This could be good. I miss Pullman anyway, it would be silly to deny that fact. Snohomish is just not my home any more.

We'll see.

But Narrow Stairs! Agh. Cannot believe that.

So much to talk about since last we spoke... all right, since last I wrote. Whatever.

I went dorm shopping. I got loads of good stuff... shampoo, conditioner, laundry hamper, bandaids, laundy detergent... you name it, I got it. All that's left is food to stock up on, my iPod, my laptop, and a digital camera. Oh man.

Also... HARRY POTTER! I won't give away spoilers, but I will say this: it's freaking amazing! The most beautiful thing ever. I want to hug it to my chest every time I glance at it. Got it at 8 am at Target yesterday morning, read it all day till i had to go to work at 2, read it during breaks and lunch, read read read, folded jeans and lamented not being able to read it. Got home at 10, settled in, and read till 3 am at which point I read the last word and sighed with giddiness. Went so sleep, woke up at 9:30, went to work again.

Speaking of which, wtf? What's with all this working? A month ago they were giving me ten hours a week. Now I have a mere two days a week off?

The Famous Footwear in Marsyville opens tomorrow. Seth and I are going to help them stock their store and open it. Of course, we aren't just helping, we're getting paid, but still. Now i have to tell them hey, I'm grateful for your willingness to offer me a part time job even though I'm leaving almost right now, but Penneys finally got their act together. I can still work, but it would only be once or twice a week. We'll see what they say.

Saw the Harry Potter movie a while ago... it was great. I lurved it.

What else...

Realized that as of tomorrow, I have 19 days left before I leave for college. Frick. I have to get my act together, pack up my room, go through everything, finalize my stuff like prescriptions and contacts, hang out with friends...

Speaking of friends, Caitlin's birthday is nigh. Well, not nigh, but nearing nigh. Good stuff... zoo + pizza + friends = awesomeness.

August 7th = Caitlin's birthday. August 9th = last day at Penneys. August 12th = move in day and first day of band camp.

I am so effing excited. I'm so excited it's hard not to type swear words. Come on, piano class? College German? English 298 with a focus on the gay liberation movement? Flute lessons? I'm brimming over, and pretty soon going to explode with, excitement.

Therefore, this entry shall now end.

Oh, but I did finally get to hang out with Christian today. :)

Interesting, isn't it? How fast things change.

....... with that intro, this entry sounds like it's going to be deep and philosophical. Sorry to disappoint, but quite frankly, it's not.

Worked today. It was a long shift, surprisingly slow. I did get to work in shoes a bit today--that's always fun. Something about working in shoes is just exciting. I helped some dudes, hung out with the guy who works in shoes, felt generally very important. I also got to help train a newbie today. She's really cute, kind of quiet and shy. She has an eight month old daughter. How cute! She was fun to train. I got to lead her around, talking about a bunch of different things and reassuring her that I didn't expect her to remember every single thing I told her. It was cool! I dunno, something about training new people is also very fun and awesome.

However, I did bite my tongue while trying to eat macaroni on my lunch. Ouch. The very tip, too, so I had to eat the rest of the noodles very strangely.

Got 7up slurpees after work with my buddy Julianne. It was her last day... sadness. Went to Caitlin's, talked, came home. Here I am.

I feel like I'm missing something really important. Something that happened yesterday and involved some nervous waiting and some changes to my profiles on various sites.

Oh yes. That's right.

I kinda sorta asked Christian out.

:D

Well, after that he sorta kinda asked me out. So I guess it was a mutual ish thing.

Anyway.

Whoot!

Hee hee.

Time to shut up now.

See ya later.

Spring break has officially begun! Only I'm not terribly excited. I'm working almost every day, and I have to catch up on all my homework... ugh.

Caitlin and I are going to the Alderwood mall on Wednesday though... time to go dress-shopping. I'm a little apprehensive because prom dresses can be so freaking expensive, and I have little enough money to begin with... but it's worth it.

My dad will be picking my car up from Speedway in about an hour. I'm finally going to have my car back! I am so happy. I hate driving my dad's car.

Postmarked my BECU scholarship application... whew. Glad that's done. And I love Postnet. To get that precious application into a huge envelope and get a fancy label and everything, how much did it cost me? $1.62. Oh no, I'm going broke. Come on, a few hours of paperwork and essays and under two dollars might just snag me $2,000 for college? So unbelievably worth it.

I'm really trying to get down and dirty with this weight thing. I'm making a list of banned foods, starting tomorrow (because I already ate some of them today). This list includes coke, reeses pieces, chocolate, pop tarts, licorice, cookies... if it's sugary and full of empty calories, it's out. I'm trying to work toward eating healthy regularly and exercising more. I figure, I eliminate a few things for one week (starting tomorrow) and see how it goes. I absolutely will not allow myself to eat anything on the ban list. If that goes well, not too painless, I eliminate a few more bad things. Eventually I won't even want to eat these things... there just wouldn't be point.

*crosses fingers* Please let this work. I've been carrying too many extra pounds for too long.

As far as exercising goes, I'm departing in a matter of minutes to try this jogging thing... I'll jog down to the end of my road (about .6 miles), and walk back up. Then I can inhale a bunch of water and post another journal on how it went. Yippee.

I need to get my hair cut. It's so long... I don't even want to do anything with it. It needs to be chopped off. Soon. Maybe I can recruit Caitlin to come with me. Heh.

I actually saw Christian today, whoot! It was interesting... dude, we almost never talked in person before this myspace revolution. It was weird actually seeing you in the real world... in a good way, of course. :D

Aaaaaaaaaaand that's about all that's interesting going on in my life right now. Later.